My Heart is Not Set on You

                        One of the things that I love about Scripture is that I can read through it countless times and still read something that hadn't noticed before. Like Psalm 131 for example. Verses one and three have been my prayer for some time now and here I find that David prayed the same way. It's similar to what the Apostle Paul says in one of his letters, and I paraphrase, “I do what I know I shouldn't and don't do what I know I should.” In Gethsemane, Jesus told his disciples, “the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” Isn't that the truth? I know it is for me. I will continue to strive to put my faith, gain my joy, and find my assurance in Christ. What about you? 

Ummmm...

At times in my life... More now than ever I just step back and go "Ummmm... What the heck am I doing ?! Where'd God go?" I mean, obviously He is ever-present in my life, but what I guess I'm getting at is "Where did I put God? Did I set Him aside, on the back burner? Or, worse yet, off the stove? When did I become so focused on myself and what I want that I just disregarded His plan in/for my life. 

     Ok. Let's be real, it's not like I know what He wants for me, but there are times when I'm like, "Yeah, no. Simeon. Stop. This is definitely NOT what He wants. 

      God, what have I become? Change this hellish mess of a life to do something that matters, PLEASE! Help me live life to the fullest... For You. Not me.